When I look within my self, I like to think I'm a decent person, most of the time. I'm slowly learning that even though I pride myself on being open, non-judgmental and accepting, there are times when I shock myself.
I found out recently that an ex-boyfriend of mine has been diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic lymphoma - in other words, he has leukemia and there's a possibility that he may not make it through.
It should be noted that he's married, and he has a 2 year old son. Since speaking with him, I found out that he's no longer married; she's run off with another man. He rarely gets to see his son. he wants to meet up with me and I have said no.
I feel guilty. why? We never had a very substantial relationship. I believe it centered around cocaine and kinky sex. Sigh, this blog has no point, I really just need to vent.
I believe I participated in a karaoke duet with some very hairy bikers last night, and this I find hilarious. I also ate a rather large kebab, and I'm still picking lettuce out of my clothes.
My best friend is a jewel. I love her.
Work is driving me mental. I can't stand the place right now; I want to leave as soon as I arrive. The place and people is completely toxic.
Lastly, I'm so fucking tired. I want to sleep forever.
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